Confusion

I find myself questioning if I should let him in. I don’t want to get hurt I cannot deal with more pain and heart ache. He spent the night this past weekend and I could not have been happier. I felt like a teenager. I felt relaxed calm and at peace with myself. He held me all night. It felt so right and felt so good. I have not had that feeling in such a long time I forgot what it felt like. With the warm tingling sensation from head to toe I knew where I belonged. God how I wish it were so easy to drop everything and run into his arms and tell him how I feel. Can someone get feelings this quick? I have such a strong feeling for him it scares me. I don’t want to be turned down nor rejected but for some reason in my head I feel its coming. I don’t know if it is just me and my self doubt or is it really that I feel more for him then he does me? Did I read too much into it? was it just what  it was this weekend two lonely people sharing a night together and getting caught in the heat of the moment,  All these questions and no answers. I have barley heard from him this week so I feel the worst is to come the “let’s be friends” or “it’s not you it’s me” did I get my hopes up to soon. I left myself in a venerable spot my feelings on my sleeve. I am starting to believe I read too much into it. Either way I still believe that he is a wonderful man and deserves the best and maybe I am not the best for him. I would like to see a future between us but if it doesn’t happen I will have move on. It will be me and my trin trin…. Maybe I am just meant to be by myself.  A loner