lost

I feel myself slipping away into a depression. It seems like a dark hole so deep I can’t find the footing to climb out. I try and I slip further. I never felt so lost and alone all my life. I feel trapped in a mind full of doubt, worries, anger, sadness, I feel scared. I know it will eventually pass or so I hope I need to find the courage I once had I need to find who I was and what I wanted out of life. I have burned people I truly cared about throughout my years and learned to push them all away. Was this because it was easier then letting them in? I need some soul searching who am I? Who do I want to be? Where do I want to go? Who do I want to be with? I know somewhere deep within I have a lot of love to share I have a caring personality, but lately I feel like closing everyone off. I need to get comfortable with myself and be comfortable in my own skin… Please God guide me through my dark hours please give my strength.